Bite Hard.

i used to get a kick out of alot of things

but i as i get older i realise my choices for thrills

start to get thin and

i find myself standing around and waiting a lot

when i might’ve been jumping 

or at least walking in circles

a few years back.

where do we go from here?

do my choices thin even more?

i’m tearing my own choices away, no one’s doing for me

but it seems like all our hands are on each others’ fabrics

all tugging at it as we mellow. (although i’m not too sure if mellow is the right word to use.)

We.

how frustrating it is not to know how to feel when some things happen or don’t happen. sometimes i wonder if it would be better if you felt sadness and terrible anger instead of being stuck in this emotional limbo, because when you would at least feel something. i’m not really sure i mean that. maybe i’m slinging this bull only because i’m in a mini phase.  but i guess one could see life as just existing as a fool and always saying one thing and then saying another thing that would contradict the first.  

we’re all just wading around in this sludge until something or someone strong pulls us out, only to have us sink, sometimes deeper into the sludge. we’re all just groping in this eternal darkness, until that same something or someone strong shines a few flashes of light or ignites a spark which excites us and probably instills some hope, only leave those aware of the darkness feel the effect of the darkness even more because we’d thought the light would always be there; at least then we’d have some cause to look upon the invisible line of the invisible horizon. 

Sooner or later, i’ll say something to contradict this post.

feels weird.

okay this is just an update cause Hui Yu said i should continue.

but really man, i have nothing to write about. how about the weather?

okay, i’ve found a really popular topic right now.

they should just extend the hols for the sake of the country! i mean, its only sensible and its a win win situation; the kids’ll be happy and the nation won’t need to sneeze and die so much. there was this newspaper article that featured 10 parents’ interviews and some of those 7 middle aged….creatures  said that “since the situation isn’t that serious, don’t need to close school la.”(just a rephrase) so what they’re saying is that we should all wait for the situation to get worse, maybe even throw in a few corpses, THEN close schools.

Geniuses. Absolutely.

well, looks like it just might happen. this is a sorta warning. prolly not the first time you’ve heard it. but yeah. thought i’d give my no cents worth. and its someones’s fault yeah. ;-P

pass.

this would be my last day as a 14 year old.

how exciting.

really.

Stellar.

Just a little something i did with my tablet and macbook. it was adapted from this design i made for a local organisation that i’m too cowardly to mention. but they didnt like black so i had to submit a friendly cheerful looking yellow piece instead. and the theme that they were looking out for is free youth expression or something along those lines. if they really wanted to show that theme then they should just have let me use black right. what’s the point of saying you support youth expression and you tell a youth to change this to suit your liking? Such Stiflers.

anyway, who cares. Both Jade and Manasa and other Sota people are overseas and honestly, i’m kinda worried for them. the whole swine flu thing has been declasred pandemic and Jade just boarded the plane today. oh dear. i hope nothing bad happens to any of them. be safe, you guys.

My birthday’s coming up, and i’m not one bit excited or happy. it feels like as i grow every year the whole birthday fever gets cooler and cooler until you dont feel it anymore. i rmb when i still felt thrilled to wake up at 12 midnight on the 16th and wait for everyone else to wake up and we would celebrate. Somehow the presents matter more this year, but then again materialistic hunger never dies.

anw, i’ll end this post now. seeya.

only high quality. nothin’ less.

So i’ve been listening to quite a load of music lately, some good ‘ol stuff that’s stuck to me for years, and some fresh new material.

the good ‘ol stuff would be Queen, Keane, Muse, U2, Led Zeppelin. you’d realise that they’re all from the UK. i mean, UK music totally has its foot on US’s music’s ass. it is the undisputed champion of Rock music, man. i get so excited whenever someone mentions the 2012 olympics, cause seriously, the only reason i would ever turn the telly on for these big events is to see those god given artists perform. the sports part is allllll filler stuff. honest.

anw, the point is, these artists i’ve mentioned have got the substance. they are just timeless. you’ll never find another one of them. 

Now, the fresh new material would be stuff like Your Vegas, Franz Ferdinand’s Tonight:Franz Ferdinand, Lenka, Beth Rowley and others which are not really new but not really timeless either. but still really good.

oh and another thing. For me, artists absolutely bloody HAVE to sound good live. in the first place, who wouldn’t want their favorite musicians to sound as good as their recorded songs? the whole point of music was to be performed. and if you don’t live up to expectations, you kinda contradict your self as an artist. 

everyday i see these less-than-half-baked musicians appear on the radio and the next day they get a million panties at their feet. its the listeners fault too, or maybe they dont even listen, they can’t. they just see who’s playing it and go “ooh, thats hot”. so yeah, many people in the world have really messed up tastes. and when you hear these so called artists perform live, you feel like ripping your ears out.

ah, what a rant.

when this blog was first opened, the template title was “just another wordpress” or something along the lines, and i think that that statement is so true. every blog or wordpress that gets birthed is so mundane. but we spend our time typing away anyway. and that’s exactly what i intend to do. 

wow, how oxymoronic of me.

Happy Parturition Day, Evan. (in layman terms, happy birthday, you mad fruitcake. :-P)

Wow, today was fun.

our dear crazed friend Evan(with the ugly black nails) just turned 15. we surprised him a little, i guess?

after that we just hung around and ate our own food. then the others got wet in the pool. yuck. they might as well have somebody pee on them right?

but overall it was fun, and i hope you felt the same too Mr Chooi. (although i know you secretly wanted an extra someone to come to your house!)

argh, i don’t want my birthday to come. its just so troublesome, y’know. having the whole traditional cake and candles accompanied with half hearted group singing, when i wouldn’t mind just spending the day maybe being alone and doing whatever i wanted. sometimes i think that most people celebrate birthdays among others cause they like to be surrounded by them for attention, which is parallel to the moment when they were first born, being surrounded by your mom and dad or other siblings and doctors.

some people call births miracles. but how do these “miracles” grow and turn into something so dangerous and destructive and evil? whoa, okay. the cynic in me digressed this whole part of the post. blame him.

anw, i was saying that i wanna be alone on my birthday for a change, maybe don’t even get presents. although i quite badly want a bass guitar, and lessons to go with it. hopefully my dad didn’t just say he would get me one and forget it completely after saying it. he does that alot. jeez.

oh well.

what i really this holiday is a nice full day at vivocity’s page one. its such a brillian bookstore. so modernly romantic and warm. lovely place to just read comics or art books. aw hell, gimme a whole week there!

then there’s the whole darn BOB affair with shawna and janel, and it just so happens to start on my birthday. man.

wish this post could’ve been longer, but i gotta run.

here’s wishing you happy birthday again, Xun Hao. and others to come.

it’s still shiny.

This blog is new. oops, i meant wordpress.

yep, its new, and i’ve started blogging again. i mean wordpressing. whatever.

oh, by the way. the name’s me/i. or you can call me chonglii/chongz/chong.

this’ll be the wall i stick my thoughts upon whenever i have time.

first of all, lemme tell you abit about myself.

i’m from singapore. i’m still in school. and i’m proud of the fact its an Art School. and i take visual arts.

i love music. mostly rock ‘n  roll and some indie pop and normal pop and alternative. loves of my life, these. i’m very very critical when it comes to mainstream music. honest.

i love movies with tight plots, great scripts, great acting, great directing and great visuals.

yup, that should be about it, generally. oh, and i used to use blogger. ugh.

of course, more of me will be revealed as this wordpress progresses and grows. that’s what blogs and wordpresses are for, right? to expose the writer to the world, or at least some people. 

this is just a hello post. i’ll be posting soon after this again if i have time. i feel like its wrong to post a normal post into your very first post cause its just…not, y’know, right?

ah well. thats moi so far.

the end.